Everything..jp..but I am a nervous wreck Yesterday two of my old good friends came here and we got Papa Johns and I weighed myself this morning and I gained a pound and a half. I was 143.5 for the longest time and now I'm 145. Still very thin. My friends said I could gain a pound or too but I'm comfortable where I'm at. But what I worry is that I'll stay at this weight and when Thanksgiving comes I'll gain another pound or two. And that will continue and I'm scared of eventually becoming over weight again. It just stresses me out so I'ma eat even less. I gotta go to the dollar store on Beach 20th and Ima walk there to burn calories. I wanna go back to the weight I was at before I had Papa Johns. I won't eat out again for a long time. I have been eating out alot recently and it was bound to catch up to me eventually. Also yesterday we were in the lobby and this woman walked by and I know her around the building and I really don't like her. And when she walked by I said to my friends 'She's nasty'. She didn't hear me but I think it was loud enough for her to hear me. Stupid of me to do cuz she woulda turned around and said what and started a big scene. Then she woulda told her boyfriend and I'd have to fight. Not that I'm scared but my mom said cuz of my brain injury if i get hit in the head the wrrong way it could really fuck me up. So I shouldn't fight. It just stresses me out that I do stupid things without thinking. Oh and that woman Fab who I see like almost every Sunday. I recently found out that you're not supposed to park in this lot outside if you don't live in the building. And we didn't know that cuz she has parked there before. So I texted her and she didn't answer and then I texted it again still no answer. So I got stressed that maybe she doesn't plan on chilling with me again on Sunday. But I don't know why she wouldn't I thought everything was going well. I know today she works til like 2 so Ima text her again. She was prob just busy at work and shit and that's why she didn't answer. Well I hope so cuz I felt like I could always rely on her. I'm just so scared of ending up alone.