[funny] Oooh Oooh, Psychoanalysis time . . . . yaaay You didn't offend me. I'm not a nihilist. You probably picture me in your mind as one of those brooding types who are always angry. Maybe like Jack Nicholson in "As Good As It Gets"? That's your perception. But I'm far from that and there's no need for me to explain myself to you. To be always happy or always angry is unhealthy. That is a disturbed mind. To answer your question, yes . . . as a child I was like this. I've always been this way. This is who I am and I will remain this way until I die. Now, as for that quote. You have read it with your already established beliefs and are comparing it to your already researched ideas about nihilism. It is more like Buddhism. Research buddhism and then you will understand the concept of extinction. To simply be what you are at the current moment is the most natural thing in the Universe. Everything is changing and evolving so change and evolve with it. You are your actions and nothing more. Your ideas in your head of "you" are illusions. They are not real. They are meaningless. People who live their lives trying to accomplish something are wasting their lives. People who hide away and don't do anything also are wasting their lives. Just live and stop worrying about meaning and purpose. When it's over it's over and your entire life will mean nothing unless you understand that all we have is the present moment. The past and future aren't real. Don't try to psychoanalyze me though, you're wasting your time.