Sip Some Tealoveme

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  1. BlackSoultan Ad Infinitum

    BlackSoultan Ad Infinitum aka Billy Shoreview

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    SIP SOME TEA

    Long as I'm here, someone will love you
    I didn't see it clear until I tried to rise above you
    Almost full grown but I didn't see why
    Standing in futile tears was a privilege of mine
    times i cried I didn't pay attention
    To the sorrow of souls
    Hollow the cold
    Borrowed the mold
    Of angst as it was fed me by Carl Jung and Freud
    As my supposed destiny
    Left the stress suppressed in me
    Depressing me recklessly
    I only wished to be
    A
    little
    girl
    Grown in the concrete
    Amongst bricks and weeds
    Dicks and trees
    always overshaddowed me
    Saw how dad abandoned me
    Tried to be the child he wished he had in me.
    You had me
    All alone
    Tried to hold me
    in the way that I needed to be held
    Tried to make me feel the way I needed to have felt
    But I die in the tragedy that I'm
    Daddy's little girl
    And daddy's little world
    Ended with him running away
    With another little girl
    I used to love the way he
    Loved me
    Loved me
    Hated the way he
    Loved me.
    Loved
    me.
    He
    didn't
    love
    me.
    None of me.
    One
    of me.
    I
    Made
    daddy leave.
    All he wanted to do was
    Love me.
    Cold off the
    Zoloft
    End it all
    with
    Tegretol
    Hold back
    the Prozac
    I
    Don't
    Feel right.
    These nights
    I must fight
    Burning sands at my feet
    Making vaporized tears
    an exercise in futility
    Humility
    20 Years
    Since I did this to me
    I needed to end me
    Because I
    Remembered me
    And what I caused
    Him to do.
    to me
    To you.
    I needed to leave the pharmacy alone.
    Harmony of moans
    Heaven's alone
    And it needed my there.
    Devil wispered to me
    And said he'd
    Lead me there.
    He didn't care.
    Devil Daddy didn't care.
    i
    Went to the 7-11
    left their
    Sleeping pills bare.
    I didn't share
    Didn't know
    You were there.
    Surprise visit
    From a soul
    Lost of all hope.
    Mom
    I
    Didn't
    Know
    You
    Were
    There, I
    Mightn't have done it.
    I'm sorry,
    You gave me this life, but
    I didn't want it.
    Opiate and hemlock
    Drool
    Taste of a fool
    Chasing the tools
    Of self destruction.
    Worse than the pain of death at one's own hand
    Is hearing the shriek of your mother
    As you exit this land.
    Noooo!!
    Screamed the bullet
    Into my mother's soul.
    My body was still warm
    As my eyes began to close
    Noooo!!
    Screamed the happiness
    As it left from her eyes.
    Endless whispers of regret
    As I thwarted her surprise
    I wanted to go
    By
    A window of hope
    I didn't know if
    That existed no more.
    Now
    I
    Know
    The sadness of eternity.
    Now I know a hell
    As I stand in these fires.
    A little girl
    Once again.
    Only to live as a ghost
    Never to hold
    The hopes of my mother
    As I watch her
    Cry her
    Self to
    Sleep.
    I can
    Only stand
    And cover
    My fears.
    Try not
    To hear
    Her cries
    Damning
    me.
    Damn.
    Me.
    He only wanted to love me...
    Love me.
    Love me.
    Love me.
    Love
    me
    love
    me
    loveme
    lovemelovemelovemea;eopfjaw[qj w
    Sip
    some
    tea....
    test
  2. h.wood

    h.wood IMAGINATION SUPER STAR

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    omg. this is the most incredible heart wrenching piece i've read in awhile .
    test
  3. Feme Sole

    Feme Sole Mrs. _Evil

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    ive really really really been feeling your pieces lately man......
    "A
    little
    girl
    Grown in the concrete
    Amongst bricks and weeds
    Dicks and trees
    always overshaddowed me"
    ^^^
    i liked that part but i truly liked the whole thing......it was long but it kept my interest the entire time......great piece
    test
  4. TuNed RooT

    TuNed RooT Love is introduction ..

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    This is the best piece I've read from you, too be honest. It hit me hard, you had a great topic and a picture to go by beautifully. I thought this piece was a meaning of Poetry that it isn't all words, yet mind penetrating emotions that scar you for life. This was a great piece, I can't help myself from saying that..

    "Ended with him running away
    With another little girl
    I used to love the way he
    Loved me
    Loved me
    Hated the way he
    Loved me.
    Loved
    me.
    He
    didn't
    love
    me.
    None of me.
    One
    of me.
    I
    Made
    daddy leave.
    All he wanted to do was
    Love me."


    ^^ I really was sunk into this part of the joint, it just held me to the seat thinking, all this love, yet all the love left with him, etc. This is worth the time that you spend reading this, mos def. My blessings..
    test
  5. lpoet

    lpoet POET

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    love this...funny cause i actually read this after i wrote somethin to this pic...and we saw kinda the same thing....yours of course is

    much much better than mines...i had never written about a pic

    before.....whole piece is quotable, cant even pic out a fav line

    kept me wanting more and more....great work
    test
  6. HOLLOW 55

    HOLLOW 55 You niggas cant trap here

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    whoa man...


    I wish I had your patience.lol


    But seriously..this was great.


    One of the best i've seen frm you.

    you should go public if you haven't already
    test
  7. Cigma

    Cigma Maxwell's Demon

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    This one hits close...you put me there. Extremely well crafted and a painful pleasure to stumble through, being tugged taut, while taught.
    test
  8. BlackSoultan Ad Infinitum

    BlackSoultan Ad Infinitum aka Billy Shoreview

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    Thanks for the love y'all. And thanks for wading through such a long piece.
    test
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