a lil background info first: im 20, my girl (friend with benefits, with A LOT OF FEELINGS involved on my part... im thinkin of tellin her i love her, its that serious, and her? she doesnt really express her emotions to anyone), is turning 19 and we known each other for 7.5 months now, anyways, i live in cali and she lives in washington state. we see each other every 3 months or so.. recently she met this guy at a club who she claims is very similar to my personality. so they always chill now and talk on the fone often and shit, well last nite my fone rings, and its my girl calling.. so i pick up, and guess what? its that dude on the line tryna talk to me askin who i am n shit.. im like 'yo u called me, who the hell r u?' and basically that shit escalated and i just start runnin my mouth how i fucked that girl 5 times and all this shit, basically disrespecting the relationship. im COMPLETELY the opposite of that. i duno what the fuck i was thinking.. it was just in the heat of the moment. and now shes ignoring me. i wana talk to her to apologize and prove to her that im NOT like that.. i just had a few too much to drink before hand and since i like her soooo much, its just hard knowing shes kickin it with that guy and i just let my frustrations out just a little bit. i mean, i played it cool throughout the convo except the time i said i fucked her already.. which is maaad disrespectful and im sure he told her about it. he's tryna get me out of the picture and i just duno wat to do. her birthday is nov 7 and i wana make a track for her with my apology and confessing my feelings to her all over again but i just dont know.. i dont think our relationship will ever be the same again and that fag got the better of me and probably my girl too since they live close to each other, while me and her are separated by 900+ miles. true, we are JUST friends with benefits but i consider her a potential future wifey and i just HATE the fact she already made out with that dude and possible something more. i kno i probably should move on and meet otha ppl and date other girls but im stuck on this one cuz shes my first love and the one i lost my virginity to so i really dont wana lose her any advice how to repair the relationship?