Today I wept at last wetting the bed with tears. My sobs were filled with shame remorse for causing suffering tasting like forgotten promises I'm sorry I ever let you down Karelyn. How I acted when you were only asking for encouragement from your man. How you must have felt betrayed when you'd given me your heart and I would be that way. Did you see the past repeating flashbacks of hurtful relationships an utter lack of nourishment is this why you felt you had to leave like my actions were based in insecurity, fundamental flaws in genes pieces of my being and I would never change them? That's not the case Sunflower! it's natural to make mistakes truthfully I'm just a baby when it came to loving moving slowly crawling developing stumbling while you've already been all grown up… If it's a waste of time It'd be a crime for me to ask you please be patient, wait a minute! but that light you glimpsed inside is real We'll find that place then I'll sunshine your face infinite.