Stuck living without a cause. Getting high without a pause. Don't have a lover; can't count on my friends. All alone once the dope supply ends. I rely on dope to show me the way. My only goal is getting high today. It's no great life but still it's mine. Plus when I'm doped up this life is fine. I get a little down when the dope runs out. I'm not ignorant I know what my usage is about. It's my little way of dealing with hidden grief. When I get high it offers me temporary relief. There is a better way to deal with my problems. But dopes the quickest way I've found to solve them. It doesn't really solve them, just buries them deep. As soon as I'm sober, up again they creep. In the future I'll learn to deal with my sorrow. But not today, maybe tomorrow. That's my motto/favorite saying. Never dealing with the present, always delaying. I know what my problem is. Next step is doing something about it. Convince myself to give up dope, I know I can live without it. But nah, forget it. That don't sound too cool. Who wants to give up dope and go back to school. All the commitments and responsibilities. Man, I'm just trippin, fill my spoon please.