I feel somewhat moved to re-open the gates to the idea that there might possibly be reason to believe in God. I admit that recently there's been looming above my head a grim reaper of sorts. But it may in fact actually just be Tom Cruise tinkering with my psyche. Seeing five year olds with soothers can really do you in mentally after all. But hey, what do I know about the history of psychiatry? So... what I mean to say is that I've been rather apathetic, listless, dispirited about the questions that may lead to any thoughtful reconsideration into what God would have me know, and what I should be doing in response. So here's what I have come up with. In this world we sometimes rely on models, we sometimes rely on perception, our five senses, we rely on facts, and on evidence that is demonstrable to us. Else, we rely on faith, religion, credos, and so. We also rely on constitution or fundamental law, we rely on established laws, and jurisprudence. Moreover, we rely on our education, i.e. wisdom founded on a hopefully working philosophy that has great merit. In all of this, I do not mean to speak categorically in any sense. I think I am me and you are you, but only you are able to tell me what it is that makes you you and vice versa: you, I would hope, rely on me to tell you what makes me me. You may not, and maybe even I may not always have this in mind which would just simply make this untrue at least some of the time. But God on the other hand, is by definition all knowing and also all powerful. This is based on faith. You may say it is divine wisdom that is sent, but ultimately this is a faith based understanding, for it is by faith that one says one can trust that the wisdom is divine. If you are on board with that, then I wish to tell you about me what faith is in my eyes. The faith that most religious people I have come across is a leap that is taken to accept something that is unproven, based on my reliance of their explanations of how they practice their faith. You are free to offer an alternative explanation of faith that corresponds to you if you are not of this group. The way I have described faith is not meant to be a diminutive statement however. In fact, I am on the edge of reason and I think that maybe I wish to possibly take this leap of faith on my own accord if this works out. I might attempt to practice faith in whatever way you might explain it if you do not accept the example I have given though. But there is a bit of a wedge here, see. I just... I don't know why. This is the examination question: 1. Why should I believe in God? A bit of a disclaimer: This is all about a leap of faith I am taking. My life, at least for the moment, is left in God's hands so to speak. Of course, I don't what God that's going to be. I've heard people say you should rely on God and not to rely on chance. But here I stand relying on the chance that God will come and take care of things. I don't know which God that is. So that leaves a chance that I may be provided for by a false God, is that correct? Perhaps it is true that I ought not to rely on chance then. I want the real God to take care of things. How do I know if the real God is taking care of things? Well, I can't leave it all up to chance. So I think I ought to set a boundary that is easily surpassed by an all knowing, all powerful God. Of course, if there are any false gods that are all knowing and all powerful, then my ultimate doom is just as easily a 50/50 chance that I can't get around. I could take solace in the fact I would that I would still be limited to the least possible chance of doom, even if that is as much as 50/50. Unless of course there are multiple false gods that are all knowing and all powerful. And, well... there ARE multiple false gods that are all knowing and all powerful if we're counting every god known to man. Which leaves the chance of doom much higher than the chance of truth. The only ways around this are to say that every all powerful God is the same God (although I don't think that is the case) or we can chalk up all the false Gods as liars who are definitely less powerful that the real God. I am willing to take that on faith if God exists, if that's what I am supposed to believe of whatever God it is that I believe in. But I still don't know why I should believe. So this all powerful, all knowing God should now know that I've presented this and should have the power to do something about it. Presumably you are individuals meant to assist in converting people to your faith, correct? I of course can't impose my own will to believe in God onto your attempt to convert, thus I cannot just simply have faith that whatever you say is true and believe it. I must accept that God will handle this. And it can't be left up to chance, therefore I must give God a way of showing me that I am privy to. I ask that you answer the question as I asked before Why should I believe in God? I do not know the answer to this question, and you do not know the answer to this question as it is something that only I can know because you rely on me to explain me. I rely on you to explain you. I can't rely on you to explain me though. Only I can explain me. And I've explained me by telling you that I don't know the answer. So it is up to God, as God is all knowing and all powerful where we both fail. But I am willing to take it on faith that God can allow you to answer the question, or to answer it through you in some way... and that God can let me know that you have answered the question but allowing me to know that it is the answer. You do have the faith to go through with this, don't you? Once you guys give the answers that you have, we can move forward with the 'God Idol' audition process in which I ask for wisdom and the 'Next Top God' modeling show where we allow Gods real and false to strut their real and fake powers.