For your last question, about the age of the earth... I don't believe that, and I also don't necessarily believe science is right on the money with their estimations either... one sounds more qualified, and as we learned in school, geological study makes sense (hence the word geo"logical"), but I still wouldn't doubt that in a thousand years whatever we believe now will seem as preposterous as believing the world is flat is now. ...it would be very difficult, if not impossible, for me to properly explain or even summarize what it is that I've observed as a pattern in my life that makes me believe in a higher power and try to understand or communicate with it. I would be classed as the crazy man before I'd be classed as a preacher, and that's a given. "if you walked in my shoes then you would be just like me", and as much as I don't know what the color red looks like to you, the same goes for your understanding of my perception. What I see looks, feels, tastes, smells, and sounds real and logical on so many levels personally that I can't deny what I know, anymore than you could deny what affirms your contrary beliefs. Everything is a belief IMO... absolutely everything. To simply accept and acknowledge your own existence, despite the scientific understanding of what comprises matter, is what keeps us sentient and tied together into physical form at a molecular level. The reason we can't walk through walls, I feel, is the same reason we can exist at all, and touch solid objects - skewed perception, ego, and delusion that anything we perceive with our eyes is reality. My own life, and I won't get too personal, has been trials and tribulations from birth... same for almost all my family. I write about it in music and poetry, I tell stories to friends and open ears, and that's part of my heritage. I never ask for material wealth or selfish gain, but only for protection, safety and whatever it is that I am supposed to receive, as if God is there and is listening. It would be arrogant of me to assume what's best for me or others, so I try to stay humble and keep my prayers and thoughts open ended and rhetorical, and let my free will take on a ragdoll state, bouncing in the tumultuous current of life like a raft lost at sea. All I can say, is that when I ask for my resolve to be strengthened, for my path to be laid before me, for my adversaries and those that wish to harm me to struggle in vain and attack to no avail... it happens, and my resolve is both my own, that of my heritage and my ancestry, and what I feel to be something else holding me in it's graces and acting as my life preserver for so long as I acknowledge it's existence and try to coalesce with it's subtle direction - for me to be exactly when, where, how, and why I was at any point where things were life and death for me, and to come out without a scratch and still stand is miraculous to me and the forethought and planning that must go into multitasking so many outcomes for so much sentient and non sentient life in so many multiverses in so many timelines to provide even single moments of reprise and joy to a person for but a fleeting moment... is so astounding to me, so far beyond mine or anybody else's comprehension and unless it can be proven that circumstance and coincidence have scientific explanations down from the alpha to the omega for any, every, and all instances that have ever existed and will exist, then I have no choice but to be thankful for the fact I'm allowed to even exist and still live amidst this chaotic struggle of creation and destruction that is the universe, let alone the careful balance of life and death that is survival of the fittest and human civilization. When I'm not asking... I am lost, completely open and vulnerable and have almost no recourse or even consolation in times of need. Fear of mortality creates many things, from spiritual beliefs, to houses, to methods of reason and rationale. I could testify in ways that would marvel a believer, but would only sound crazy to another - and incite a myriad of reactions in the gray area, depending on how much a person can relate to or empathize with my experiences, as you said about writing itself - relevance is subjective in all things. I'm not trying to dissuade you from your thoughts, only justify my own because it came up. That topics obviously more relevant to both of us than 2Pac's legacy. Long post, sorry. [youtube]71w2zdncfj8[/youtube] I'm not a Christian rapper though, or preaching... just opening up.